-= screaming from the heavens =-

After all
The way you wanna live like this
And all along the way
It was meaningless

Nevermore
Will I gain the same
The hiding of your shadow
The feeling is fading

Faster...
Forever, forever after
The burning sensation
The turning temptation

Screaming
Screaming from the heavens
Would sweep the global
Disease, I'm hopeful

Fire
Bleeding desire
The burning sensation
The turning temptation
Faster
Forever, forever after
The burning sensation
The turning temptation

Screaming from the heavens
and down upon thee
In tears of sadness

(The shadow makes me forever dream)

No...

After all
The way you wanna live like this
And all along the way
It was meaningless

Nevermore
Will I gain the same
The hiding of your shadow
The feeling still fading

Faster
Forever, forever after
The burning sensation
The turning temptation
Screaming
Forever, forever dreaming
Of the heaven
The bloodrede heaven...

This was written at 7:43 pm on Friday, September 30

-= zebrink =-

A torrid week it was. I don't know what else to do or say.

I've let myself down so many times already that I can't seem to bother anymore.

Oh well. I guess something has to be done.

Hmmm...

This was written at 7:16 pm on Thursday, September 29

-= dum dee dum =-

Apparently... I'm supposed to do this but apparently I went through some time phase where I got left behind while time moved forward.

So... Here goes. The lesser known things about me.

1. I have 2 birth marks. Up to you to find them.

2. I didn't go through the whole of K2 for some reason.

3. I sleep flat on my stomach. Preferbly on the floor please. Heh.

Okay. Done. So yeah.. Whoever reads this has to do it as well. I think. Heh. Weee!

This was written at 1:45 am on Wednesday, September 28

-= sleep =-

Sleep deprived and life deprived. That's what I am these few days.. Blergh.

Has been rather uneventful this past week really. SPH offered us a gig at the Esplanade for 2 days. 16 October and 17 November. And the fee was $300. That's $50 each man... However, my bro turned it down. Why? Because he wants to study for the O's. Of course I don't blame him. But then, if you can't balance your studies and this kinda of thing, why do it in the first place? I think we're the only band causing this problem. I see it as a huge waste of opportunity. And this wasn't the first time. *ponders*

But really... Somehow I think I hadn't been myself this past week. If I had done anything wrong or what, please forgive me. I really couldn't get any control of myself. It's like I've been taken over by some kind of higher power. So yeah. That's about it I guess. Good day.

This was written at 5:06 pm on Sunday, September 25

-= dreaming of the queen =-

Dreaming of the queen
Visiting for tea
You and her and I
And lady Di

The queen said: I'm aghast
Love never seems to last
However hard you try
And Di replied

That there are no more lovers left alive
No one has survived
So there are no more lovers left alive
And that's why love has died
Yes, it's true
Look, it's happened to me and you

Then carriages arrived
We stood and said goodbye
Diana dried her eyes
And looked surprised

For I was in the nude
The old queen disapproved
But people laughed and asked
For autographs

And there were no more lovers left alive
No one had survived
So there were no more lovers left alive
And that's why love had died
Yes, it's true
Look, it's happened to me and you

I woke up in a sweat
Desolate

For there were no more lovers left alive
No one had survived
So there were no more lovers left alive
And that's why love had died
Yes, it's true
Look, it's happened to me and you

This was written at 1:29 pm on Saturday, September 24

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This was written at 1:14 am on Wednesday, September 21

-= i must (not) =-

Note(s) to self:

1) Stop pulling strands of hair off my head or I'll go bald one day.
2) Find a few boxes of tissues.
3) Start playing the keyboard again. Been almost a week since the last time.
4) Remember to load Ares when I sleep to allow the transfers to complete.
5) Bug my mom to upgrade the com/my wife.
6) Stop giving silly excuses for not doing things.

I think that's it.

This was written at 2:01 pm on Monday, September 19

-= nastrolgen =-

Dear MSN Messenger, please quit signing me in and out automatically. It gets rather irritating. Thank you.

In other news, I just ran out of tissue paper.

Yeap. Today is Saturday. Tomorrow is Sunday. I wonder where they get the names. Why can't Monday be known as Vitday, or Tuesday as Welkday. Or maybe have a Moonday as well. That could come after Sunday and before Monday. Hmmm...

Everyone's out. The only thing that could make me happier is for the sun to not shine so bright. Not that I have anything against sunshine though. I just prefer it to shine somewhere else where the sun don't shine.

I like Johnny Cage. Do you like Johnny Cage? Oh well...

I think I'll go watch more Mortal Kimbat Parodies now. Good day.

This was written at 2:59 pm on Saturday, September 17

-= temp =-

Will resume blogging some time in the future due to lack of ideas. =)

This was written at 1:25 am on Thursday, September 15

-= heat wave =-

And still, this is my honesty
As I always wanted to be
Why do I feel so bittersweet?
The distance, killing me
In time, when we grow older
May life smile upon you dear
My heart would surely be colder
Going through the years in tears.

I can't sleep. Even when I'm dead beat. Tried sleeping in the afternoon. Got up every half an hour. The heat was killing me. Was sweating like an English man.

I think it's come to a point when each and everyone of us has to decide what to keep and let go of. And I think I have to let go a lot of stuff to really make my self happy and others for that case. I think hope is one of those things I can forget about anymore. Cos everything I have hoped for has never became reality. So what's the point?

Ever had that feeling where you wished you never knew someone but deep inside you can't let go? I think that's the worst thing anyone could ever feel. Well, if you ask me, I sure wished I never knew alot of people. Life would be much better in solitairy confinement in my point of view. Like they say, what you don't know won't hurt you.

Yeah. People are people. You can't change them. They change themselves. So it's either they change and you change as well, or they change and you forget about it. I think the problem is when you try to change, they change even more. So in the end, forgetting about it would be the best thing. But It isn't. It makes it more complicated.

So in the end, it all comes to the question I keep asking myself, to care or not to care? Well, I think I rather not.

This was written at 8:48 pm on Wednesday, September 14

-= falling hair =-

I really am running out of things to blog about.

Let's see...

I did this. Then that. The that again. Then yeah. That's probably it.

Champions League tonigh. Hope I'll be able to stay up though. Heh.

I think I'll would like to grow up alone. With my own 1-room flat.(if there is any) Eat instant mee poh. Drink bandung. Listen to self-depressing music. Play or write depressing music. Then die peacefully in my sleep. :) Ah yes... The perfect life. Solitairy bliss.

Goodnight.

This was written at 10:17 pm on Tuesday, September 13

-= If you haven't known already =-

What's the point of doing anything when we're gonna die anyway?

Rather interesting thought isn't it?

Sometimes I do wonder. Why go through all the pain, the suffer? When in the end it results to nothing? Hmmm...

The answer to those questions will be answered soon enough.

Sometimes it feels it would be easier to fall, than to flutter in the air with these wings so weak and torn.

This was written at 12:11 am on

-= real madrid 2 celta de vigo 3 =-

Today. We kick some ball. Very fun lor. I long time no kick ball like that one. Because from last week my leg injured ar. Now not so injured already, I can go kick kick ball. I kick the ball high, low, straight, senget, upside down all also got. But now my leg abit pain lah because I kick ball no shoe one. So my leg very the red colour lor. Aiyoh... Then when we play, the rain suddenly come. So we quickly go run lor. Then I go ride my bicylce in the rain for a while. Very nice ah. Then after that I go home bathe.

I think today my day quite boring one ah. Maybe I sleep early today ah. But cannot leh. Got Barcelona match later. So yah. We see how lah.

Okay lah. Good evening hor.

This was written at 7:50 pm on Sunday, September 11

-= tender soft tissues =-

So while I wait for the toilet to be available, let me just type something here.

I've been having these recurring dreams about my hair being cut and my teeth falling out. And in the dreams, I look like an idiot. As if I'm not goofy looking enough already. It was one of those dreams you wish it was real, cos iI dreamt I upgraded my computer to a 4.0gHz Pentium 4 with 1GB memory. Ahhh! Then I realised it was a dream. Blergh.

So much for upgrading my wife.

Yay. The loo's available. Good day.

This was written at 4:15 pm on Saturday, September 10

-= i have found a cure. i think. =-

To my sleeping disorder that is. Heh.

It's Friday. And I'm up already. Why???

I need more sleep.

Flipping coins with picks is fun.

I just remembered that my pencil glows in the dark.

Lalalala~

Ah!!! I want to go back to sleep. Blergh.

This was written at 10:13 am on Friday, September 9

-= turkiye =-

Yay. Turkey beat Ukraine. Let's just hope Denmark beats Greece in the next match and Turkey beats Albania for a play-off spot. Heheh.

Hahah. Went jamming at night. Interesting session though. Hahah. Saw some people I had not seen for a while.

The instant Cambell's Chicken Albhabet soup is nice. Though kinda costly. 3 packets for $2.25.

I shall not use my keyboard bag today. I had enough of it already. Hmmph.

12pm. I think this is the first time I haven't eaten before 12pm. Hahah.

Okay. I shall not elaborate further. Good day. Heh.

This was written at 11:53 am on Thursday, September 8

-= let's see... =-

Let me just count how many times I got up from my sleep just now. Went to sleep at around 1am. Got up at 4am, 5am, 5.30am, 6.20am, 7am and lastly 8.30am. Something is really wrong with me.

Ah.. Tomorrow is Thursday and I haven't even started. Die ah...

This was written at 8:34 am on Wednesday, September 7

-= desert storm =-

I had a nightmare. All the Snickers bars were sold out. I searched everywhere to look for that one Snickers bar that I craved but it was no where in sight. Then I came across this old minimart. I thought if I couldn't get Snickers, a pau would do. Went to the pau section but there were no paus. Only currypuffs. I was about to give up hope, but then I decided, what the heck, let's just check if they sold Snickers. And they did! 2 for RM2.40. Now that's cheap. So I bought a pair. Then I woke up.

Yes... I think I'm having withdrawal symptoms. Chocolates... Bah.

Going to Johor gets more and more boring everytime. As usual, Athirah gets crazy over instant noodles. She goes hyper when we go shopping for it at Giant.

And that concludes my Sunday. I wish I was at home though. Nice weather. Hai...

This was written at 9:59 am on Monday, September 5

-= storm =-

3 days. 3 downpours. It can't get any better than this.

I think it's justice that the hurricane hit the US. Serve them right for bombing Iraq.

Yesterday was a seriously tiring day. Maych in the morning which we won 5-0. Could have been more though. Then had to carry my keyboard in this awkwardly big keyboard bag(which i shall not use again) all the way to Clarke Quay and back. Thanks to it I have a purple shoulder.

Four Tones is a nice place to jam. It has an XBOX. Hahah.

I guess that's all for now. Let me just enjoy this downpour for now. Good day.

This was written at 12:42 pm on Sunday, September 4

-= everyon had nightmares =-

It rained the whole day today. :)

Was kinda bored the whole afternoon. Then Hairul called and asked if I wanted to join him and Wan for some Red Alert 2 action. Since I was kinda bored anyway. I thought what the heck. Kept my unbeaten run intact. Heheh. Apocalypses rule man.

Match tomorrow. I'm afraid of a lack of players. But what the heck.

It's a nice cool night. The bed's very tempting. Maybe I should. Hmmm...

Go prata plaster!

This was written at 10:53 pm on Friday, September 2

-= visions of tragedy =-

I had a dream
I saw into the future
We all have nightmares

Thou were gone forever
But the scent of thee
Was still overwhelming

Alone - alone again
Lost in this world
And the present had become past
Alone

Why - why me
Isn't there somebody else who can't bare this loss
I - am alone
And darkness penetrates my mind
I see my life flashing before my eyes
I am walking in the woods at night
I think, but my thoughts dissolve
But what can it change
It's like that everywhere

Time had come
And the days were done
I can't bare this loss
Never

Why
The light from thy eyes, that I used to love
Has passed away, forever
Will I hear the birds sing again, from the trees around me
Will dawn appear again, and dusk disappear

And I cry - alone
Isn't there somebody else who can't bare this loss

This was written at 9:26 pm on Thursday, September 1

-= prata plaster part 2 =-

Click here to see how a prata plaster looks like.

Finally. The prata mystery has been solved. Yay.

This was written at 3:02 pm on

-= no you're duey =-

I hate emokids. Why? Cos they make me emo! Hahahah. Okay kidding. :) smile people.

I am still without a keyboard bag.

Kinda wasted my time going back to school. Should have trusted my guts to stay home.

It's been just another one of those days. You sit and wait for something to happen. A nice tv show or maybe some interesting news or something like that. And apparently, nothing much happened. Haiyah...

Water. Not sky. I must remember that.

Guess I'll just go lie on my bed and hope something like the sky falling or the solar system spinning out of control would happen.

In the meantime, her, have some ice cream........

This was written at 1:15 am on